monday
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
i'm in com lab 1 now. dunno for wat everyone's playing a fool & going on msn. wth is happening to our class? ppl hating each other giving sarcastic remarks. wth is happening? where is the love ppl? prp & jh transferring sch. class broken up into grps. ppl fighting among themselves in grps. the class aint the same. ppl changed. honestly me too. i'm guilty of not loving the class like i used to any more. y wats happening? if the class aint united all along, i wouldn't be so bothered by the dispersion this yr. but we showed ourselves we can be united last yr & now, everyone's letting the sand in their hand go. everyone's letting their hands off. the sand refers to the class business. once we let our hands off, the sand will just drop, scattered all over the place, turn into a mess. y? wats wrong?
last yr we still hv ms lim to be the peacemaker, this yr ms long dun even care abt the class. everyone's bochup abt the class. we no longer hv the sense of belonging. i'd rather ppl address the class as 1e3 than 2e3 coz i felt belonged there. 2e3's just a name not a class.
ppl hv gone to the extent of writing the names of ppl in their blogs & expressing their views abt them. it's gd dat they express their views at least ppl noe wat others think abt them & see where the prob lies & change their faults. it's really sad to see the class turn out like dat. the gang had told sw wat we felt abt her following us. i dunno if she understood wat we said coz she's still sticking mong's grp. i'm not sure if she'll change. but i hope so. the prob wif her is she dunno how to interact wif ppl. so wat am i supposed to do abt dat? we tried toking to her & gifing her ideas on how to interact wif ppl. it's not dat we dun welcome her in the gang but her lifestyle's completely different from us. we dun wan her to change to accomodate us & neither do we wan to change to accomodate her so might as well ask her to find other close friends. when we asked her to the amphi-theatre to tok, she tot we've accepted her in the gang. no! i'm not bullying her if u think i am. it's just i dun feel comfortable wif her ard.
honestly, 1e3's the first class i've ever had a sense of belonging to. during my yrs in marymount ,esp 6d, i've nv been upset abt the class disunity. this explains y i aint enthu abt the class for the first few months last yr. but after seeing how others love the class, i start to love the class too. but now, the class's falling apart & it's breaking my heart.
in the past the song 'Graduation Ceremony' reminds of the class but now, 'Where is the love' reminds of the class instead.
