i'm so tired. i just went to see a doctor coz my dad's worried abt me getting tired so easily & hving headaches so often. the doc just gave me some vitamins to stregthen my body. & i'm excused from pe & CO hahahahaha. my dad mentioned abt me transferring sch too. doesn't sound like a bad idea afterall i don't like the principal too. the sch's so demanding. the only want their name they don't care abt their students. just keep saying wat take care of urselves blah blah blah then say wat work hard ur results are so disappointing. shut ur tap lah. if u lessen cca time & do more things to improve on our studies & arrange more useful enrichment programmes dat will help a lot more than hving u preaching here. i was standing at the parade sqaure during assembly this morning & i was mumrmuring to myself," shut up!". it's not as if i'm afraid of her or watsoever it's just i believe dat respecting others = respecting myself.

during CO today i went ard the sch wif meng fei & ginger. kept going in & out of the audi & went to 7-11. i treated them to a packet of potato chips & meng fei trested us to a can of 'bu shuang'. tastes horrible meng fei said it's a milk soda yucks!

anyway both of them are really playful but cute in their own ways. wat impresses me the most is how they maintain their friendship. from wat i heard from meng fei, ginger & her knew each other since p2 & nv got into the same class b4. the friend i've known the longest is cy. knew her since p1. not close to her since i went up to p3 & p4. though in the same class in p5, i'm not very close to her. p6 we are good friends wif another bunch of my friends. i guess im still traumatised by wat happened when i was in p3. i find dat i can't totally trust anyone since dat incident. tv programmes also show many long friendships ended in the end when the ppl grew up. i can't bear the feeling of drifting apart after being such gd friends together but i agree dat such things are inevitable. they make gd company too. probably becoz they are still wilful dat i still find them cute.

after reading bnn's post i disagree wif some pts. yar we do things coz we are influencened or taught to by since we are influenced or taught, those characteristics are instilled in us so we hv that characteristics too. we do things coz we noe dats the right way to do yar i agree sometimes we do things to prevent gossips or bad impressions but most we do it out of concern don't we? is dat hypocritsy? hu will go all out for their friends? like u said we are humans selfishness's one of our nature. it's a matter of degree. like me, i won't love anyone whole-heartedly as in give my all or trust anyone totally coz i noe things change so do ppl. by doing dat i'm giving ppl a big chance to upset me. but then again we can't overdo things or get over suspicious over stuff we must noe how to balance. sometimes we say things to humour someone coz we don't want to hurt ppl's feelings. yar it may seem like an act of hypocritsy but then no man's an island we hv to think abt the impacts we might hv on others before we do anything. dats why we are taught to be considerate & dats not hypocritsy. imagine if ppl just wanna do watever they want is it right? is dat wat u call freedom? the real freedom is letting urself be free. by letting urself be bounded by so many restrictions ( make urself think u've no freedom ) dats not freedom to me. freedom dats wat everyone wants but do u deserve it will you abuse it? too much freedom aren't u afraid u might abuse it? isn't gd for someone to guide u but not to the extent of leading u by the nose? i dunno i just things to be simple.