rmb when i was a kid
i used to dream about how my future would be like:
i'll own a big house of my own
equipped with the latest technology
drive a big car
& lead a luxurious life with my family
i'll be a professional & earn millions at a young age
When i have money,
i'll buy those playstations & gadgets that my parents forbade me to buy
how excited i would be when these thoughts filled my mind
i wanna get put to see the world
now i've grown older,
realised that the world aint as beautiful as i painted it
my desire to see the world starts to fade
i'd rather stay in my enclosed cage
at least i noe i'll be somehow protected
when i was a kid
i wanted to get away from my parents strings
hated the way they always wanted to make decisions on my behalf
i wanted to fight for my human rights
but now, i'm older,
given the freedom to make choices,
i find myself in a situation where
i'm not confident about my choices
i dont noe wat i want
if someone was to come up to me & ask me wat do i wanna be when i grow up
truthfully, i dunno
sometimes i wonder
what are we striving so hard for?
to kill time in our life & call it making our lives meaningful?
i dunno.
all i noe's that all things will come to an end one day
relationships, friendships, life itself
will come to an end one day
are we striving so hard for the whole of our lifetime just to get a bit of happiness?
sometimes i wonder
if humans hadn't thought so much
perphas there would be less broken hearts in the world
yar maybe u'll think that that kind of life aint different from any other organisms in the world
not at all interesting or meaningful
all they do's to eat to survive
but maybe that kind of life would protect us from being hurt, emotionally...
i'm breaking down